the thought of you just smoking makes me wanna fucking cry. 

I was too optimistic. 

As a person, I am not expected to like everything that comes my way. I have my differences and my own set of opinions. Some like to do things that others do not and  instead of staying stubborn to my view point, I should be more open minded to my surroundings. I don’t necessarily have to accept anything, I just don’t have to be so against it so much. Give whatever it is the freedom of my mind instead of chaining it down to a certain point of view, that way, everyone is happy and life is less complicated than it already is. For a very stubborn person like me to be willing to let loose of what I strongly believe in is a fairly difficult task, to me at least. But seeing you happy means the world to me, so if there’s a will, there’s a way. 

I kinda miss you a lot. I’m sorry I put you through so much that you practically hate me. I don’t blame you. I would hate me too. 

I hate Ms. Jensen i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate her i hate herrrr! ASLKJNKSNDSANKJSANd I for sure failed that AP lit test today. UGH! 

rude. get the fuck over yourself! 

The future is ambiguous, my past a train wreckage, and the present? A tiresome and winding road. If things happened for a reason, then what the hell is my reason. 

Hope you guys had a great one too! Now, back on the grind…oyee. BUT ITS GOOD! WE ABOUT TO LEAVE IN 2 MONTHS! 

Golfing I’ve got to admit is boring as fuck to watch but when you actually get to play its so much fun. It’s difficult as hell because it requires so much technique but its absolutely addicting. It’s surprisingly calming too. After a good 2 hours, it set me in a mellow and super calm mood the entire night and I couldn’t get out of it. It’s so wierddd, but I like it. Now if some motherfuckers piss me off, I know where to go instead of rage driving on the streets. Fashooo. 

Goal: Become at least decent at this sport and make it a hobby.